The Vagaries of Writing
/A letter to my Critique Partner
Dear Estelle Harte,
sounds like a good day.
My day sucked..well, kind of.
I had a really good morning. and wrote some really cool stuff.
[d-it] i'm getting mad thinking about it again.
*breathe*
My day sucked..well, kind of.
I had a really good morning. and wrote some really cool stuff.
[d-it] i'm getting mad thinking about it again.
*breathe*
at some point, midday, the computer shut down, on its own, like it was possessed or hated me.
I logged back in, a little worried that my Word recovery wasn't going to work [that's tyical for my program--pisses me off]. Well, Alleluia, I had my recovered document. Only the damn thing was unresponsive. The program kept thinking and thinking and thinking. I had to reboot. [and of course, now I kick myself and think, should I have waited???????] on the second startup, no recovery. no document. Grrrrrr. i did a search for .tmp thinking. the damn thing says that it's saving even when I don't hit save. every so many minutes it autosaves. but no! there isn't a temp document anywhere! Actually, there are temp docs but nothing from yesterday.
I hate recreating stuff. IT NEVER WORKS! And it was really good. it was a scene that i'd done some revisions on already and I liked it, alot. Now it's gone and last night i tried to put it back together but I'm not going to be able to. I'm going to have to wipe the slate clean and start new. So I read my story up to that point hoping that it would flow from there. My mind was too occupied with the freaking angry at my computer and its incompetence feelings. OH. it just makes me so mad! WHy?! WHY?! Why does my computer do this?! Why did I not save? I always save! this has happened enough that I'm really good about saving! Why was my guard down?! today, i'm putting notes up everywhere. post its, legal size, crochet and cross stitch.
SAVE! SAVE! at every page break, every pause, every line...
the anger might be too great to try to work today as well. i think i'll look at your nine. right? i think that's where I left off. i'll check. must be that anger induced fugue state. i'm having moments of blank spots. LOL. <--see, I can laugh about it.
the anger might be too great to try to work today as well. i think i'll look at your nine. right? i think that's where I left off. i'll check. must be that anger induced fugue state. i'm having moments of blank spots. LOL. <--see, I can laugh about it.
~Bethanne
